Well this is a start, currently sitting on my bed 2:42am in the morning with my iphone light beside me on a pile of shoe boxes (yes I know I'm so inventive) you got to make do of what you got. I dunno its kind of weird me writing a post,my first post that is in the early hours of the morning when really I should be sleeping, as I have work 2moz. But this has literally been a current sleeping pattern of mine for the last 5 months, I would go to bed at like 5am in the morning and wake up at 3pm in the afternoon, Im proper living a rockstarr life just without the hotels,drugs, alcohol, and the naked women lol. The reason for my weird sleeping patten is, I'm a total party animal I go out everyday of the week with a bunch of cool indie friends who look at the world as one big party!!, looool if only my life was really like that, im only joking i am literally the total opposite of that, I hardly go out most of the time im at home either watching some really good trashy reality tv show or on my laptop watching youtube vids.
But anyway back to the fact I don't have a sustained sleeping pattern any more is, I just finished A levels last summer, (and having a long ass summer holiday doing F*** all hence the weird sleeping pattern) with AMAZING results, errrr yh I wish I came out with three C's to some people that is amazing results but for me i'm pretty disappointed with myself, I dunno this year I literally had a lack of motivation compared to last year in yr 12 by the end of the year I just couldn't wait to finish exams and leave my school forever and never look back, I just got sick of going to the same place for the past 7 years of my life (i literally get bored of things very quickly) and was ready to pack up all my books and distressed pencil case and leave. Don't get me wrong I wouldn't change the past 7 years of my life at my secondary school for anything, I literally made of the greatest long-life friends that I wouldn't change for the world even when they can be annoying as F***. Sometimes you just need a new change of surroundings and I just felt that it was time to end that chapter of my life and get ready for uni well kind off, thats a whole another post I will dwell into later
Going back to the stress and the reason of my near death, A levels, I really wished I did better in my A levels I wanted to get at least one A and 2 B's (I took maths biology and chemistry and yr 12 i did drama) I did pretty well in yr 12 getting ABBC, then it just went downhill from there. I tell myself at the start of every academic year that I will focus much harder than I did in the previous year but I literally do exact opposite and see myself procrastinating more than usual, taking unnecessary long breaks,drinking endless amount of coffee and tea, even tried mixing the two together, the worst mistake of my life!!! waking up as early as 3am in the morning just to cramp in last minute revision but then falling back to asleep, face planted across my revision notes. Lets just say A levels is not a chapter of my life I want to revisit, but at the end of the day I am proud that I did not quit half way through like some people did (not to throw shade lol, can't believe I even used that term seems like everyone is using it nowadays) and I got into a great Uni that I initially did not apply to aswell as my course, but i will go into more detail in another post,
I'm gonna end it here for this post, but its nice having somewhere to put all your thoughts and feelings without people judging, well that's me for today
-A ( so pretty little liars esc)
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