Birthday Blues

Sooooo im not 18 anymore which is great *insert weeping emoji here*

Yep November 7 marks the 19th anniversary when a beautiful angelic angel graced the planet earth, naa I joke, but yeah, I officially turn 19 today.To be honest Im actually kinda of sad about it, turning 19 is just not the same as turning 18, being 19 I feel is just a constant reminder that this is your last year of being a teenager forever and its time to shape up and jump into the great big world of adulthood. Also saying your 18 definitely has a better ring to it than saying your 19.
 In my heart I will forever be a child maybe im just not ready to leave my teenage years behind, hence maybe that's why I wasn't really ready to take the plunge of university life this year and taking up adult responsibilities.
 For me birthdays is just other ordinary day,I tend to spend my birthdays with my family or in the case of this year, working an 8 hour shift on my birthday YAY *insert a thousand weeping emojis*

Im actually kind of annoyed!! How could my own mum forget it was my birthday today , still at 23:00 not one happy birthday, but she happily remembered the fact that I have to pay her my phone bill for this month, im really disappointed in her, i don't care about presents or gifts, to be honest im think Im kinda too old for that but not to even say one simple happy birthday to your own daughter is really annoying and kind of sad, My friends who are off in Uni who have other stuff on their mind but they still managed to send  lovely birthday wishes. Even when i left for work their was no birthday wish at all!!! And it was not even that she herself had work today she had a day off so really she doesn't have an excuse, maybe i sound a bit like a stroppy teenager but it would have been nice to at least have a happy birthday from your own mum. I am definitely feeling the birthday blues!!!!
I think everyone has that bad birthday sometime in their life and I definitely think this one is mine!!

 I don't really celebrate my birthday anyway  compared to other people who got out and do the whole sherbang, for one I have never really had a birthday party, wait I probably have, when I was younger but just too young to remember, there're not really my thing, I can't deal with the stress of planning party, not knowing who to invite, stressing if everybody is having a good time, I feel if I did have a party I wouldn't have fun, at all!!!, I would just be stressing out the whole night, which is not the point of having a party, so that's really why I haven't really celebrated my birthday. Maybe next year when I finish my gap year and enter the world of university I'll probably celebrate then, but for now ill will be celebrating my birthday in the comfort of an 8 hour long ass shift YIPPEE but also treat myself with a  slice of vanilla cake when I get back home.

Also am I the only one who hates that fact that Facebook has to go out of it's own way just to  remind all your fb friends its your birthday, err no thank you Facebook, but some people actually like to keep the fact they are getting old to themselves, thank you. And actually it would be nice knowing who actually remembers your birthday without fb notifying them in the first place. But there is a plus side,as my birthday really is the only day when I get a whole load of notifications in one day lool I know I live a very boring life lol

But don't get me wrong I am totally blessed to have another great year of being healthy, having a loving family and friends around me who are always their for me in time of need, well sometimes lol

Well that's my birthday thoughts for this year, and may this 19th year grace me with great and exciting things to come.

-A